So it's been almost a week since I wrote a blog, it's been a busy week but a good one. Rachel has been awesome. I am not sure why, but I love it!
On Tuesday when she got out of the car for school she said, "I love you." Usually I initiate saying "I love you" when she gets out of the car, and every once in a while she will say it back. When she said it first that morning, we both stopped and looked at each other in surprise. Then she said "Just kidding... I mean... it depends." I just looked at her and laughed saying, "I caught ya."
She and my sister Emily who is just 6 months older have been getting along fabulously the last couple weeks and went to a school dance together last night. They were still getting along well when I picked them up from the dance. Miracles never cease! After the dance I dropped Rachel off to do respite for the weekend at another foster home.
I have spent today with my old roommate Linda. Even though it has been hard for me not to worry about Rachel, being with Linda has been SO FUN!
The most significant question that has come to mind this week is how to keep from getting joy out of circumstance when your circumstances are going well. I usually try to get joy from the Lord when things are bad, but what about on the good weeks? The DSS social worker called me and gave me great news this week, saying that she had staffed Rachel's case with all the other adoption social workers and that they all agreed that she should make a referral for a home study for me so that the adoption process for Rachel can begin. In case you feel confused, so am I. This is the exact opposite of what I have been told the last few weeks. Even though it is good news I am trying to remember to not get caught up in all this back and forth. The tenuous nature of my life is a great reminder that God knows the future, no matter what our plans are.
The words of an old hymn come to mind, "my hope is built on nothing less than Jesus love and righteousnesses." This is my prayer!
On Tuesday when she got out of the car for school she said, "I love you." Usually I initiate saying "I love you" when she gets out of the car, and every once in a while she will say it back. When she said it first that morning, we both stopped and looked at each other in surprise. Then she said "Just kidding... I mean... it depends." I just looked at her and laughed saying, "I caught ya."
She and my sister Emily who is just 6 months older have been getting along fabulously the last couple weeks and went to a school dance together last night. They were still getting along well when I picked them up from the dance. Miracles never cease! After the dance I dropped Rachel off to do respite for the weekend at another foster home.
I have spent today with my old roommate Linda. Even though it has been hard for me not to worry about Rachel, being with Linda has been SO FUN!
The most significant question that has come to mind this week is how to keep from getting joy out of circumstance when your circumstances are going well. I usually try to get joy from the Lord when things are bad, but what about on the good weeks? The DSS social worker called me and gave me great news this week, saying that she had staffed Rachel's case with all the other adoption social workers and that they all agreed that she should make a referral for a home study for me so that the adoption process for Rachel can begin. In case you feel confused, so am I. This is the exact opposite of what I have been told the last few weeks. Even though it is good news I am trying to remember to not get caught up in all this back and forth. The tenuous nature of my life is a great reminder that God knows the future, no matter what our plans are.
The words of an old hymn come to mind, "my hope is built on nothing less than Jesus love and righteousnesses." This is my prayer!
2 comments:
I love this post!!! How fun that she said she loves you and that you could both laugh about it! So great to "spill my guts" on the phone...would love to talk again soon.
wow, that's great news!! :o)
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