Monday, November 12, 2007

My Repentance.

I have to admit to you my friends that I have not been leaning on God. I have been sort of ignoring Him. I know He is there but I really haven't taken the time and effort to pray and read the Bible even though I have had more time this past week than I have in months. Even worse I now have the responsibility of another's soul, the biggest challenge of my life, and yet I am not walking with God. I did my budget the other day and I was short because of the way certain checks fall. I knew this would be a very tight month. I wrote on my budget notebook God, I am trusting you to provide $X amount. Today I was given a check that covered a bit over what I needed. It goes to show that God does not give us according to what we deserve. Thank you Lord for your provision, and reminding me that in your presence in fullness of joy!

3 comments:

Susan said...

Brooke,
As I read this morning, this quote from one of my heroes came to mind to share with you. I am so excited to see God's love flowing through you and your family to Rachel, his child and your child. Love, Susan

We are children, perhaps, at the very moment when we know that it is as children that God loves us—not because we have deserved his love and not in spite of our undeserving; not because we try and not because we recognize the futility of our trying; but simply because he is our father; and all our efforts, fruitful and fruitless, to do good, to speak truth, to understand, are the efforts of children who, for all their precocity, are children still in that before we loved him, he loved us, as children, through Jesus Christ our Lord.
-Frederick Buechner

bethany weaver said...

love you much, brooke! ben & i are coming to california for christmas, dec 18-28. we'll be in the bay area most of the time, but i think we are trying to be on the central coast, maybe two days after christmas. i really want to meet rachel & see you, even if only for a couple of hours. i will let you know more about our schedule as it gets closer. hopefully you guys will be around!

love you!
bethany

Brooke said...

Susan thank you for your words. I agree. This journey with Rachel is giving me some perspective of my own childishness!