In summery, I am weary.

I had the best night sleep, which was a HUGE blessing, as I have been having some trouble with that. I have barely had a minute to breathe since last week. I have definitely felt very overwhelmed and tired in this fast-moving week. There have been lots of blessings along the way, and so much encouragement but the thing is that this commitment involves moving, changing jobs, and becoming a mom, any of which would be a lot in and of itself. There is also a strange overlap between work and my move to foster care, because I work for the agency I will be certified through. My time can easily be eaten up by talking about my foster care stuff when I need to be working. It also makes for some strange relational dynamics, because the people that are now my social workers, are my superiors at work. The other piece of things is that Julie (my roommate & one of my best friends) is leaving to move to Nashville in a couple weeks. This is another big adjustment for me. My other roommate Linda and I were discussing last night that each roommate is so busy with things that cannot be dropped, that we have felt unable to fully participate in our friendships by coming alongside one another in a practical sense. I have felt so much support from my roommates, we just don't have time. In summery, I am weary.

In the face of all this change the most confirming part is the time I have been able to spend with my girl. Friday and Sunday we got to spend time together and it made me SO excited! When all the details and the over-analyzing are gone and we're together it just seems right and good. There are all these little things about her that seem to fit me so perfectly. You will laugh to know that when she came over to my house one of the first things she wanted to do was have a dance party. How perfect is that? I know things might be really hard, but I can't wait to get beyond this stuff and actually dive into the relationship!

I am trying to stay centered in the Lord, but my body is letting me know that I am stressed, because I am extremely exhausted all through the day. Please pray that I would really be able to walk in peace. The verse that keeps coming to me is Matthew 11:28-30 "Come unto me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Amen and Amen.