Trying to Summerize

It is a bit intimidating to start a blog. I think it must be easier to know what to say once you've been in the habit of blogging, but the permanence of writing things down frightens me. For me the purpose of starting a blog has to do with 1.Staying in touch with all my friends afar off, and 2. Because I can't bring myself to keep a journal but I feel that God is doing some things in my life that I need to document.

I will try to put lots of pictures on my blog because honestly, I rarely read blogs without pictures. This picture is of the view from the window of the little apartment I live in here in California. I live with 2 other girls, Linda and Julie who are sisters that I grew up with (sort-of), and who have now become some of my best friends. Julie is moving to Nashville in mid-October and then it will just be Linda and I.

My life is busy with work, friendships, and the endless activities that seem so wonderful at the time I agree to them, and rather burdensome after I come home late night after night. The other reason they seem burdensome is that lately I have been transforming into a true introvert. I love being home alone, reading, thinking, cleaning. Just being alone has felt so good. This is a new thing for me, and I suspect I will eventually get over it.

As I sit at home alone lately I have been mulling over some huge decisions about the future. The main battle going on inside of me (and it has been a true battle) is about whether or not I should do long-term foster care (and possibly adopt) a vibrant and resilient 12-year-old foster girl I have been working with for the past 2 1/2 years. A little over a week ago I decided that despite all the pieces that have yet to fall into place, I want to pursue taking this girl (due to confidentiality I can't say her name or show her picture yet). This, of course, is a big deal! Maybe in another post I can outline how I came to that conclusion, but I will spare you the novel for now. This is a big week where I hope to find out some information to let me know how much of a reality this might be. She is already on track to go to a group home so it is possible that it won't be a option, at lease not in the near future. PLEASE PRAY! Not just for me but for her. Her little life has been truly tragic and even if things don't work out for me to take her, I want her know Jesus as the healer of the loneliness and disappointment that she is living. Also pray that I would trust God's sovereignty. It is so hard to have seen this little girl's life be so screwed up, and trust that God has a plan in the midst of such heartbreak. I need faith! Have a good week friends.